Ah! So I only managed a single entry into my “writing habit” journal thing. I must strive to get better at finding time for this, after all, isn’t “being a writer” what we (I) am aiming for? It’s strange that I now find myself in all sorts of other positions in the pursuit of seemingly “easy” money, by which I mean fancy titles and luxurious salaries. Dealing with the politics of a growing organisation as well as leading a team, skills that are valuable in their own right, and I’m dismissing them out of hand because I’m not writing long-form journalistic-ish content. I’ve just finished “Notes From An Apocalypse” by Mark O’Connell, a similar style of book to the likes of Jon Ronson and…well I’ve forgotten the guys name… Will Storr. In these books, our authors will travel around the world experiencing things and talking to people then construct a thematically cohesive and, you would hope, engaging book about something. It sounds perfect as a job. Of course, having scoured the various job boards recently for new positions, there have been very few of them that have offered that sort of lifestyle and output. “Professional Author” is perhaps what I should be searching for, but “Head of Marketing” (I believe) pays more. And tragically, this is what my life has become: a rat race. I have confidently marched into the race of rats with a briefcase in hand and my tail held high. I constantly worry that my life has devolved into normalcy and mediocrity, like my failure to create my own business has led me down this dark path. But there are things to love about my life and I really shouldn’t denigrate it too much. This obviously isn’t a “real” fear, or one that has any consequence. More that the existential threat to my ego has been made manifest. Until I become “rich” or “financially free” am I stuck working for other people? Or will I one day sit at the same table as Will Storr, Jon Ronson, and Mark O’Connell? Only time will tell, I guess I should actually start writing things again and put content out into the world rather than keeping my intimate thoughts trapped in this secret Google Doc for the eyes of only me. #books #employment #goals