Are we back to the standard journal entry format? Okay, maybe just for a day we are. I loved writing the poems last week, I think I’ll resume that next week as well. Just trying to write poems about things that I love speaks to me in a wholesome “this-is-self-care” kinda way. Although, this week was dominated by the writing of an obvious House of Leaves rip-off… well perhaps that’s too derogatory. The piece is clearly influenced by House of Leaves (I mean it’s a meta-textual critique of a fake piece of media) but that’s really what art and creating is all about, right? Having a go at creating something that you think rocks. The response to the piece has been met with universal acclaim (from my peers) which is, nice I guess (?) I’m not really sure what I’m looking for when I share my work with people. Some form of critique? Maybe just to share some vulnerability with others; “here I made this, I think it’s good” is such a simple gesture but one that few people muster the courage to do. My Mum will invariably recommend me a work that my piece reminds her of. I am still coming to grips with learning how to process that positively. On one hand, I completely understand that it comes from a place of love, recommending things that she thinks I’d be interested in based on my work. On the other hand, I try so hard to be original that it often feels like a kick in the teeth when I find out that William-fucking-Shakespeare already wrote a fucking sonnet about the same fucking thing 400 years ago. I also have a hard time tempering my…expectations (or ambitions perhaps). Like, I dream of publishing a short story and then fucking millions of people are all like “Wow, so good, much depth”. But I just don’t have that kind of platform and try as I might, I don’t have the drive to build something like that. Maybe I do and it’s just a case of more consistently publishing work (be it on Medium or wherever). I both care and don’t care. It’s fun writing poems and micro-stories, but to take it further? Ah fuck it. I’ll just publish them on my Medium. *This blog is referencing [[The End of Art]]* #writing #success