I can only watch her self-destruct
A car crash in slow motion
Despite my devotion to the notion
That I can soothe her emotion
I can only watch her self-destruct
She says “maybe it’s just who I am”
She says “it’s all going according to plan”
Who am I to disagree?
Should I not simply believe?
And trust and love that it’s not all for dust
When her actions speak louder than her words?
Her actions scream “I am in need”
A need for acceptance and a need for love
The thing is love, when push comes to shove
The only person who can save you is you
And we joke (as she reaches for more coke)
That she parties not just to cope
But that her addiction to the sesh
Is her living her best as I try to confess
All my concerns and hopes
To trade the cocktails for tea
To go to yoga instead of a Sunday party
To see her just once when she hasn’t had a bump
To speak sober and true
But there’s nothing I can do
I can only watch her self-destruct
09/05/[[2022]]
#adulthood #frustration